Susan, when I first responded I had no idea that you would leave the site altogether! NO NO NO You must stay!!!! This site is as much you as you are of the site: a legendary!!!! That says so much.
But you have read every post and responded to so many of the newest members here when, if you were to go to another site many times ppl aren't welcomed for a week or more if ever! Yes, being admin is a tough line to walk... and can cause even the most stable person to waiver at times, but your efforts to be human with your decisions was always the underlining factor... and that's important. The site still needs you for that. We still need someone to read our posts and at least let us know SOMEONE did!!!! You always did that for us. I know you fought battles in the background too, to help keep the site safest for all. You simply must stay!
(Looking for ball and chain for your leg....)
The site won't be the same without you. I will rethink my own staying if you leave, as you are part of it's history and a stablizing force. I wonder how it will change if you leave... Your absence WOULD be felt, and I'm not sure anyone other than DocJohn can maintain that balance here which takes so much time and patience and thought. So ya just gotta stick around, hon, you gotta.