Thanks everyone

It's just they want me to do things I don't want to, by putting those thoughts in my head and getting me confused enough to do it, or at least want to do it, even getting sent back to the hospital would be good enough for them.
Then I ask my nurse to not talk about me with the others and she won't to it, not even just tell them half, she knows they want to kill me, but she tells them anyway, so I get my mind raped and she fills in the rest for them.

My psychologist left last week, so I hope she isn't stuck now, since there's a new ash cloud