(((((( Bama ))))))))
You are not a failure. You are a human fighting the beast of addiciton. Sometimes that beast wins the battle. But you ARE strong enough to stand up to it again and again and again if that's what it takes to win.
Have you found a sponsor yet?
You know all the things you need to do.
Talking down to yourself isn't one of them.
Be kind and gentle to yourself.
I care about you.
Petunia