I know the trapped feeling VERY well; in fact it is something I still struggle with years later...I wish I'd been in therapy when I was in school, some of these issues might have been resolved sooner in my life! I do wish you the best, and feel free to pm me anytime if you need to chat. Take care and I hope things go well in school!
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From the movie The Hours: "If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too."