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Hi Typo,
Thanks for writing! I appreciate it!
Yeah, my T talks about self-care. Not something I am good at, no surprise... I think? I don't know if it is trait of BP's or if it is because of past trauma. In any case, it is hard for me. No, to be honest, more than hard. I don't really know how to do that. I guess you need to feel worthy enough to take care of in the firstplace and right now I am struggling with that (again!). I can know all sorts of things in my head, but my emotions don't grasp it at all. And because of my BP they go haywire too easily.
Stress indeed. I am more or less homeless... I don't have my own place to live and it is hard to find something within my price range. Since I can't work I receive support from the government, which in itself is something I am grateful for. In he US I had to do without income for a while. But I need cheap housing, which means social housing which means rules... and I don't fit in the urgent category as such. So I am praying for a miracle.
Well, I am hoping that a day will come when my BP is not taking over my life and I am able to have some form of normal life again. So far I have been out of the work force and so called normal life for over 4 years and I don't see an end yet. There are still traumas to work on and to get out of the way. I thought I was further than I seem to be, noticing my response to one of the forums on here. I was so sad and severely disappointed. Oh well.
Sorry for rambling. The one thing I am good at it seems.
The Crazy Rambler
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