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Originally Posted by Junerain
I am excited but worried about my mental health background, which mostly is that up till now I led an extremely empty life..its not like I was ever a criminal or anything I guess...just lots of time in psychiatric emergency with severe depression, lots of firings from jobs due to appearing 'strange' or 'a bit off' (which I have toned down now..appear almost healthy  ) and the fact that I am not very close with my family, I have cut off my abusive mother...I guess that is another story.. |
I have never held a job over a year, haven't spoken to my abusive mother in 20 years and am more than a bit off...and am married to my hearts greatest desire. My wife worried when we first met that she was 'too broken' for this to work. I told her, and I meant it, that people are like nuts - they need to be broken to get to the good stuff.
I really do mean that. Most people are so superficial. I'm not getting down on them for that, it's human nature. Until one has been through the fire, you really can't even begin to know yourself or do any meaningful self-examination which can lead to becoming more than you are.
Until we are tested we are simply human animals - which isn't a bad thing necessarily; I like animals. But when tested we gain the possibility of becoming human beings. It makes us different than others but certainly not worse, different with incredible potential.
Enjoy yourself and him and have a wonderful date.