Oh - Thank you!!! I appreciate it ALOT!!!!

This whole thing is so STUPID (my husband's behavior)!! At his age (52) does he not have the ability to see that he is doing a significant amount of damage to the future of his life (not to mention mine)??? He has virtually no savings of his own, will be living in an apartment bc the house stays with me, has been racking up debt since he left, and wants to retire bc he "has his time in".

With the kids now grown and essentially gone, we (I guess just me) were looking forward to being able to travel, at least take long weekend trips, spoil our g-kids, look realistically at retirement plans....all the things that "REAL" grown-ups do!! AND to appeal to his "N" said, we are close to my family and spend alot of time at some family owned vacation property. At any given time there are about 15 people around to naturally provide his needed "supply". That number can increase very easily to over 50 people and he LOVED the attention that he could generate from everyone!!!

Interestingly enough, his family just told me that over the course of our marriage he has been telling them that I "came from money", and was always taking him to black tie affairs so he had to buy himself a tux - He does not have one and I have NEVER been to a Black tie affair!! All I have done is work HARD and have been blessed to have had the successes in my career that I have.

I am just venting and feeling sorry for myself (I don't know if that is allowed or not!)

But does anyone know what mid-life is typically like for someone with this disorder. I am thinking he could actually get worse (I don't know how but...) and maybe as someone said "he gave me the Golden egg when he left".

Thanks for the thoughts!!!!