If this posting is a trigger for anyone dealing with a family member's suicide, please stop reading. My mother shot herself in June of last year and the panic attacks and anxiety kicked into high gear a couple of months ago. I am seeing a t and taking xanax as needed. The depression meds precribed by pdoc right after my mother's death made things way worse. I have opted to stay off of antidepressants and try omega and a decent nutritional diet. So far so good until lately. While I realize that Mother's Day and her death anniversary are triggers for me, it doesn't rationalize it for me. I take it easy with the xanax because I know my own dependence on feel good meds. But I still feel like crap, I still have panic attacks at the stupidest times (is there a good time), and my stomach just aches all the time. Not asking for a miracle; guess I just needed to vent. Thanks.