Dear one. I read your reply. I would like to reply in detail and its already very late here. I will write tomorrow. Hope you are feeling Ok and maintaining your strength! You are lucky to have your good mum. Strive on this motherly love who offers support, acceptance and love, allows you to be you. Try to provide for yourself with fatherly love that you never had. Grieve for your loss and give yourself the love of nature, the love of adventure and action and the love of freedom.

I am so glad you are determined to move! I am supporting you. Your friends sounds like a good idea, even if the neighbourhood not great. It can be a temporary solution. You need somewhere where your spirit can heal and grow.

I will write more tomorrow. Stay safe xxx