I grew up in a home that was kinda, "Don't ask, don't tell". Because my cousin was raping me almost nightly for years, I pent up a lot of anger and resentment not only towards him but towards myself for letting it go on for so long. It's very hard to forgive myself for that. Plus what I put my body through when I was using dope everyday. My body will never be the same, and that hurts.