I have developed the weirdest issue of being incredibly distant from my husband (well, fiancé, but here in Utah... yeah, it's easier to say you're living with your husband than a fiancé).

I've become incredibly distant and rarely want to cuddle (we used to be cuddlers, he still tries... but there are times that I'll just feel like I'm being suffocated).

I have a hard time understanding because I love him, he's my world... and I really think God sent him... because no sane person would put up with the bipolar episodes I've been having... and I realize it, I've subconsciously tried to push him away countless times to save him from having to deal with me.
He's put up with so many mood swings, it's just not right.

When it gets to the point that your mother asks, "Does Caleb know you love your cats more than him?"... yeah, that's not a good thing to hear. It isn't true, of course, I just have what feels like a safer love with my kitties, because they're animals... an animal will rarely stop being devoted to you if you treat them right.

I'm really confused by my own behavior.