Hello soscared and welcome
You have been through a lot and I am so sorry you had to endure all that you have.
It is great that you are in therapy. Are you on medication as well? It is so important to have a good relationship with your doctor and make sure him/her know how you are feeling. Write things down and ask lots of questions.
You took a huge step posting here and reaching out to us and that is something you should be proud of. Keep posting to us - you have found a wonderful caring group.

Heather
"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
~~author unknown