I think the only reason that I'm suffering the way I am is because I did something wrong to displease God. I don't know what it is.
I've prayed and prayed for years, but I receive no answer. I ask him to take this depression away from me, but I still carry this unnecessary weight. I don't think God wants me to be happy. I just think he wants me to suffer. He hasn't given me a partner, yet he gives me the ability to deeply love someone and a high sex drive. I don't understand!
I've been a Christian all of my life, but now I'm starting to deeply doubt my faith that he loves me. I keep thinking that he has a vendetta against me.
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