Thank you for the support. I went to see T yesterday. Silent One actually started to communicate with me a little and she was just barely whipering. Then in session she was able to whisper more and then finally she opened up enough in tears. It was a very rough emotionally draining session. T told me he had never seen me express that much raw grief. Uggg. It was hard. But I think it helped that deepest part of me get heard for once.