(((((((((Rohag))))))))))))

First off I want to say, I get the chance to read over your posts here and there (I mostly hop around the PTSD, Bipolar, and Surviors forums, but I make a detuour into the depression forum from time to time) and I always enjoy your insight.

Secondly, I have experinced something like this too, I know mine comes not from Generalized Anxiety Disorder, but the anxiety disorder PTSD. I let things build and then I get triggered by noise or light and fly into a rage, slightly similar to what you described (there is a hole in the wall around here somewhere from where I flew into one and punched a hole in the wall) and I seem to disconnect and withdraw for a few days afterwords and get very hypersensitive to noise, movement, and lights. (hypervigelence, goodness my spelling is awful)

For me I take note of the signs, like it builds up for a few days before I actually fly off into an explosion, my startle repsonse gets bad, I find myself getting snappy with others, and I fall into a disconnected depressive state and start isolating, I try to note those signs and communicate with someone close to me (usually my best friend, or if close to a T appointment my T) or take a walk, meditate, something that is calming and centers me.

It's not your fault bad things happen Hard to relaize sometime (I struggle with the same thing) but sometimes it's helpful to remind ourselves of that in the moment or have someone that is a support for us remember

Keep posting Rohag, I hope you find the answers you seek

Best Wishes, Peace, and Serenity
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