sorry in advance for being sad and pessimistic....I don't want to drag you down with me, but I have nobody to talk to.....

how many more days I got to be alone? I feel so lonely.....It looks like I tried every single possibility to find a partner for myself and I failed.....I can't think about any other ideas even....yes...I'm out there....yes, I do activities that I enjoy....yes, I'm on the online dating site now....yes, I go hiking with a group...and I go dancing....but it looks like there is no eligible bachelor in any of these events....and yes, I gave up!

but I can't stop that void and fear inside my heart.....Is that it? Do I stay loner for rest of my life? How is possible for a minority to find a partner in this big country? Is there any chance even?

Do I ever find that partner for my life? I'm losing my hope and I know that's the very bad thing

sorry for ranting
M.