It will get better...sometimes it takes awhile to find the right meds. It took a long time for me, but now my mood swings have been quite manageable for over a year with only one deep depression which was helped by a minor med adjustment. This is the longest I've been out of the hospital in a long, long time. Just hang in there and keep putting one foot in front of the other...you'll get there!!
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From the movie The Hours: "If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too."