Thanks Marjan,

Yes, of course I went to the new job. It was good. Everyone is very nice and welcoming. They guy thats there at the moment doing the work is so rubbish at his job! No wonder they told him to go. The time with him is a torture as he is so creepy and IQ level of about 80... He keeps touching my papers (even when they are on my lap.... yuk!!!) And he calls people 'that little black girl, you have seen her' or 'that black guy' - it makes me sick and so uncomfortable. I am so glad that as of Monday I wont ever see him again. Interestingly my colleague (another manager) has loads of books about abusive children (the work is with young offenders) and about child development. I may ask to borrow some. She is very nice. But - the building is so dark and no windows are open and I feel there is no air in there... I could not stay there long - so I just try to enjoy the positives.

I am sorry you did not like the homes. I am sure you will find something you like. It takes time. And about those negative thoughts - try to focus on the positive and the achievable. Set yourself some small targets you can achieve every day.

So great you dance salsa. I love it but not very good at it....

Hugs xxx