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Originally Posted by Sannah
Did you make obvious progress during those 12 years?
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Yeah, I pretty much wouldn't be alive if I hadn't gone.
So, I guess that counts as progress.
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Being able to believe in the end point is sort of helpful in getting you there.
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Yeah, it'd be nice. ^^;
I feel guilty for snapping, and when I snap I snap viciously... and my fiancé receives the brunt of it and I cannot understand how he puts up with it.
I can be incredibly vicious at times.
Then I feel guilty for being vicious and mean, so I crave hurting myself.
And then if people find out, they're sad that I did so... and I feel guilty again.
And then the cycle just starts all over. Anything human in the house is on the receiving end of my viciousness when I'm down.
Mom, Dad, fiancé.
Only the cats and dog don't have to deal with my behavior.