Thanks so much for warm and encouraging words....I always love to hear successful and loving stories....

True, probably, I feed the thoughts of loneliness so much....Probably, I should just quite thinking about it....I just get afraid when a year is going by and I have nobody still with me....and I agree with being alone is better than being in a stressful relationship....that's what I'm really afraid of....I had those bad relationships enough in my life....no more of those please.....

I've already felt better now by reading your replies and that article and tonight I'm going hiking that I love....I go with a nice group of people....mostly single and passionate about hiking....

thanks again
Marjan