Since my father doesn't live here anymore, I'll pick a day to leave when he is not here. I don't even know if I should tell him I'm leaving, or where I'm going. I'll keep all my boxes in my room, so when he comes over he won't even see that I'm packing. The last time I left my father's home when I was a kid, I just left my stuff here and never came back. I had enough stuff at my mom's house. Of course now, he could call the police and say that I'm missing.

When I got away from captivity from the kidnapper, the man was not there, and that was the only way I probably could have gotten free.

A while ago, I had a dream that I was moving out and my father was here. In the dream, I confronted him about everything I ever wanted to and then he admitted to the SA. It was very scary. I hope that is not how it will go. It's sounds odd, I know, because a lot of us want our abuser to admit to the wrong they have done, but to me, that makes it more real and worse, and most of the time I want to deny it happened.