Sorry and thanks everyone. Just having a rough time. Too much going on in my life, can't focus, everything gets foggy, can't sort stuff out I hate this. I hate feeling so messed up and chaotic and not whole, like a freak or outcast or burden. Too fragmented and broken to be something whole or coherent or normal. Broken up. Trying to focus on good stuff but too much going on. Trying though. Really am.