Hi Lex!!
Lex, sometimes you just need to take a breather from your life. Ya' know? You're stuck with these god awful memories, your Mom has passed as well as others in your life, your Dad is in a new relationship which you're feeling being pushed away with, you're having money problems and you have a retarded kid harrassing you.
Okay, give yourself a break.
First, tell yourself that it's okay to feel sad and angry.

On your profile you list that music and writing are your hobbies. Can you get lost in any of these two things?

If you'd really like to get away then try something totally different like getting lost in drawing even if you can't draw or listening to a new genre of music you'd normally wouldn't give a chance.
I find trying something new gets me away from me for awhile. If that makes any kind of sense. Well, it's worth a try.
I hope you're feeling better soon. (((((((Lexicon)))))))