Anderson, I read your posts and can't help but think it seems so incredibly unsafe where you are. Do you think you can ever gain external or internal safety in this place?
I think there are so few people in the world who actually understand DID and can be trusted to not abuse this knowledge. From what you write it really doesn't seem like the people you are with are capable of this. The rollercoaster ride of hope and disappointment in relation to these people just doesn't seem worth it.
Do you think, one day, you will be in a position to find true safety elsewhere?