I don't currently have a T. I was given a number from my pdoc for someone she knows and suggested, but effectively left it up to me to make the final call. That was nearly 2 weeks ago. I'm not sure if this psychologist is trained especially for BP or what her area of expertise it.

Right now I feel I'm in a neutral state, and like this I find it hard to motivate myself to call a doctor - I effectively feel I'm coping and right now don't have the need to ask for help. Yet when I come crashing down I clutch at straws for help. Guess I am my own worst enemy.

I would really just like to have a certain routine, maybe a mantra I can read, certain music to listen to, other types of exercise.... anything to help me cope when I'm down and feel like ODing and getting into bed, or when I'm entering a hypmanic phase and getting ridiculously snappy.