My dearest Kiya, I am so sorry that you are struggling. You are so clear in your fears, though. I remember when I first met you here. You would explain a fear and be all over the place. It would take many posts to sort through it. The time frame would be weeks I think. But look at you now. You wrote your fears out very clearly in one post. Now I see that as progress. Your mind has focused so much more. This is so good.

I see a theme of change here. No wonder you are scared. You just went through some huge changes with your move. And you know what? You adjusted so fast. I was really so proud of you. And I'll bet you will adjust to this even faster. Maybe your graduation fears are mostly anticipation? If they are, this is good because your fear will dissipate soon after the graduation.

I also see that you are upset because people can't come to your graduation? I'm sorry . You know, I didn't even go to my Bachelor's or Master's graduation. I went to my Associates Degree one and I hated it so I never went to any other. My problems concerned having family to celebrate it with. Things just are what they are, you know?

Your dream was very clear and its connection with this issue.

Kiya, you have made so much progress over this last year. I think that your life will be good and it will open up with new possibilities........

(And it does sound like you handled being triggered from the trauma exercise very well!)