Thanks, Byz! I saw my pdoc Apr 19, got Seroquel. Haven't seen my t for quite while, March. Waiting for ins to pay my last 3mts bills. My t says there probably is some "emotional blackmail" going on and gave me some reading to do. There is a lot going on here at home (need carpet,etc). I will be busy next week with that, it may help my "captured" mind. My husband is going back to our old house, for our auction, lots for him too. I need to be alone. I fake it with others. Alone I can do, cry, work and not be concerned with others. My t is half a block from my house. I can go in any time if necessary. --I was reading some old world history, the Byzantine period came up. Quite a time in history. You sure work hard in PC. So many appreciate you, as I do.--