I used to like the high parts, but in the last year they have taken a turn from pleasant into the realm of just plain uncomfortable...where I used to have these lovely, productive, creative hypomanias, now I usually just have mixed states or a manic state that consists of extreme anxiety, irritability, moodiness, impatience, restlessness...so uncomfortable. I used to say I'd never trade being bipolar (back when I was "soft bipolar" or type II) because the highs made the lows SO worth it. Now, though, as a type I, I wish wish wish I could just be normal--the lows are terrifying and exhausting and the highs don't even feel like highs; they just feel like depression wearing its clothes inside out. If that makes sense. I have to admit I was taken by surprise when my bipolar II quickly turned into very obvious bipolar I...it can happen quickly and it can be a whole different experience with regard to highs and lows and everything in between.

Have you spoken to your doc about your perception that the lows are increasing and the highs are decreasing? It could be significant and is definitely worth mentioning.