Googley,

My therapy has helped me over some other humungous hurdles so I am hoping that it will on this one too. It is a gentle type of EMDR. I sometimes stand while we are going through it and even I can even stand on a balance board, if I want, but not lately. Maybe I need to get back on the balance board. I've gained so much weight being sedentary that I am afraid I'll knock over the counsellor though. (doesn't that conjure up a site?)

I get where you are coming from Googley.

I think for me, this has come up for me at this time because it is a part. I must have exhibited this fear in my therapy before because my psychologist has talked about me doing martial arts. I would but I am unable to afford much of anything at this point. I'm kinda afraid of it too. I remember now I once took a couple of sessions with a guy who taught our police how to do martial arts. Shoot I'd totally forgotten that till now. I just saw his picture in a magazine recently. Maybe I'll take that into the counsellor too maybe will help me figure this thing out.

When I go to my Alanon group I am in the same building where martial arts are being taught. All throughout the meeting we can hear: "ooof, arrrrr, ooof" and some other in-unison type things. Maybe it is working on me from a distance and allows me to stay in my meetings. (Lol, okay so that is pretty far fetched but who knows what is happening in the unconscious, perhaps some ancient martial arts therapy).

I think what he wants me to learn is that "I am powerful". Why can't these things be taught as a necessity rather than an option in gym classes (I am whining here, aren't I?)? When I am able to pay I will take steps to be as strong with my body as I am with my mouth. Any step will help. It all will help..

Thank you for starting this thread. It is really making me remember and and think and hopfully make these changes.

Hunny