I could see that. But I dont get why. I dont know how many times I have told him that just because his ex was a total *****, thats no reason for him to get defensive with me automatically. And this morning it happened again. He went to the gym first thing and when he got home he hadnt been on the internet or anything and automatically had a nasty look on his face so I just left and went to campus.

I told him in a letter I wrote (because whenever I start talking about relationship problems I start having a panic attack so I wrote a letter instead) that if something doesnt change Im not going to be around much longer. At first he was really mad and upset and defensive. Then after I gave him examples of how I always come second he LOOKED sincere. Whether he was or not I cant tell.

So then I looked up some stuff on addiction to technology and the big things were getting irritable if he doesnt have it (which he does), if he hides it (I catch him secretly looking at his iPod then hiding it once he notices Im looking) and having it affect your relationships (which obviously it is).

What Im afraid of is that we are going to move together, nothing will change and then he will be in a totally different state with no where to go and I wont be able to stand it anymore. That is exactly what happened when my ex followed me to college and I ended up being the bad guy because he had to move back to Ohio with his parents.