Agreeing with Claire!

Wow, I don't think they should have threatened you like that with further hospitalization. What jerks!

I know I'm stating the obvious -- but therapy just doesn't work without the freedom to be vulnerable in session. You'll have to trust your T to the nth degree. And it's so very hard to get to that place, even under normal circumstances. But with the threat of hospitalization being held over you like a sword? I understand why you feel this is doomed right out of the gate.

I would say try not to let these (totally justified) fears spoil your first meeting with your therapist though. This person might be someone you can really open up to. They might turn into your biggest ally.

I'm really interested in what happens to you now! I hope you'll update us on your first session