In my opinion you can only count on yourself to get yourself through something. While you may enlist others help (therapist, etc) I think you have to realize it's only to help you get back on your feet - so you can eventually take care of yourself again.

I'm sorry you're losing those close to you, and that you feel alone in all of this, but just know that we are here for you! It may not feel like a lot, but when you've got nothing, the smallest things count. Sometimes other people have their own problems and issues and feel like they 'cant be bothered' with others...those people will feel the wrath of Karma pretty soon.

Good luck in all you are going through, remember to pick yourself up for yourself, and that we're here for anything you need.