Hi, yes. I agree with you. People like that are empty inside. Also I think that they are afraid of something and by closing up their perceptions and their judgement they feel safer. Its such a sad way to be.

I can understand you did not want the father of your kids to be having this mentality. I am with you on that one. Just before I left my ex, he was laid off from work. He is white middle age. And the area he worked consisted of a lot of muslims and hindus, asians and africans, though top management is still predominantly white.. Anyway - few days after they told him to go we were watching TV and there was a programme about the mosques in that area and the islmaic movements. It was a balanced report showing all kinds of people who are muslim. And also a worrying phenomenon of what happen behind closed doors in these mosques. Interesting programme. Anyway - he, out of the blue, said that becuase of those muslims he lost his job and that in the future we will all have to wear head scarfs etc etc.... I am a middle aged white man thats why I was laid off... because of these ****ing muslims... (SORRY TO ANYONE WHO READS THIS!! HE HAS MENTAL ISSUES I AM SURE!! I KNOW MANY SWEET AND NICE MUSLIMS!). I was shocked!! I tried to talk to him about it and tell him that he sounds like a natzi... His rage and hate was unbelievable. Really reminded me of the natzies blaming the jews for their misfortunes. And part of my family lost their lives in the hollocaust as I come from a mixed family. I remember that night I thought like you - I dont want the father of my kids to talk like that and think like that. I guess he felt very comfortable in the relationship to say all that... a year ago he would have never talked like that so I think his real self came out... He was drunk that eve. But I think that if you dont believe in this **it it wont come out drunk or not drunk. I am so happy he is out of my life. The confusing bit is that he was not always like that. He was very gentle, caring, warm... His best friend is black afro carriebean. He has been with me for 7 years and I am white Eurpean to a family who is both Jewish, Christian and Non religious - so how... But I guess that is part of the abuse...

I hope I will find that special person. I want to be with someone and enjoy all the things you enjoy with the one you love, have a family etc. Some times the prospects of meeting someone nice whom I can connect to seem so slim...

How are you today? I have not been feeling too well... cant sleep...