Hi Shakti,

"the lows are terrifying and exhausting and the highs don't even feel like highs; they just feel like depression wearing its clothes inside out. If that makes sense. I have to admit I was taken by surprise when my bipolar II quickly turned into very obvious bipolar I...it can happen quickly and it can be a whole different experience with regard to highs and lows and everything in between."

I like your description very much, Shakti! Once I was diagnosed, I had BP II, but very quickly it turned into BP I. I can't say that I really enjoyed my hypomanias, apart from the fact I was very active and could accomplish really a lot. Maybe it was also because I wasn't aware of it at the time that what I was experiencing was hypomania. I was undiagnosed. And I could be pretty irritated, angry and nasty as well.... Not something I am proud of !Over time my lows have become lower and intenser, ough. And I do have more lows then highs, although overall it is hard to say what is happening sicne I am all over the place even with meds. Hoping to get more stabilized with Abilify added to my regimen. Will see.