well honey....he needed to blame somebody for his misfortune....that's all....
I was always curious in religious and I was always seeking for spirituality....what I found is that all religious have same fundamental....It's just us, human race, who is misusing them for our own purposes.....and people have different colors, but once we are cut open, we are all the same!!!
It's such a shame that some of us as human being are still thinking and fighting over such a matter....I think one day, there will be just one race and one language in the world....and hope human race unite together....hope for the peace in the world.....
I admire multi-racial families....and honesty, kids from one or more races are healthier and more beautiful....science back me up in this
anyway....I think we should drop this conversation here as it can be so touchy I hope I didn't offend anybody reading these.....

try to drink some camomile's tea before sleep....It helps....
I'm trying to be okay and get some work down....
My girlfriend was so angry yesterday and we got to a bit of argue....I'm kinda tired of her talking non-stop about her x life....that's all I don't need to hear....so many times, she wanted to talk about it and I said I really don't want to hear it....(it's just disgust me as I am friend with her boyfriend too)...I just don't want to imagine them together....argggg.....even another friend told her once, that we don't need to know....so, last night, she was so tired and she got so rude with me when I was talking about my coworker who comes to work late and leaves early and doesn't work at all....she gave me examples of her work place and a lady who is nosy into the people's time and stuff.....I asked her why she makes me feel bad and all I wanted from her was just listening to me.....she got angry and she brought up that the old wound she had on her chess....I couldn't believe that....I said you waited a year to tell me....she said yes....you dont' want to hear how wonderful is my relationship with my bf....I said, I'm so happy for it, but I don't want to know about you x life details....she wanted to argue more....I said I don't want to talk right now....pointless....I've never seen her like that.....people can show their real faces.....well....couple of times she told me "do you want to talk about it?"....i said "no"....then she starts again and whatever she was saying was making things worse....I told her..."just drop it"...lets not talk for a moment....we'll be okay then....I know how she can carry on the situation in her heart forever....
I think it's better to write my problems here in PC rather than telling family and friends....It looks like they are using that information later on!
Anyway....that was my last night drama.....thank god, i didn't carry on the conversation with her, otherwise, she would have told me more stuff to hurt me!

thanks for listening
M.

P.S. I came home crying thinking if I had a bf, she would not do that to me!!!! just a thought probably....but I felt so lonely....and honesty, I'm happy for her relationship....and her bf is not what I would have chosen at all....I've known him before they got involved! Nothing about that guy is turning me on!!!!