I am sorry. It sounds like she was picking a fight and was really self obsessed... Some people are like that. And we all get like that some times. I think its good you put your boundary up and told her that you dont want to hear about her sex life. I am with you on that one! Its private. And if you told her you dont want to hear it she should have respected that. Not become angry! I am sorry you felt so bad... Maybe its time to take few steps back from her and see how things go. I think talking this way about sex with bf is a sign of insecurity. And maybe she was feeling like you did not validate her experience (which you did not need to do!) so she became angry. In the end of the day it should not matter if you are with someone or not. People should be respectful regardless! And certainly you should not take that personally!

I am feeling increasingly stressed about things. I have a headache and I know its from stress. The last few days- since I strated work (it may sounds strange) I find getting up and ready in the morning really hard and going to bed at night really hard. The last time I was working was when I was him and for the last however many years... So now this routine of waking up and getting ready, and going to bed - is really really hard... I feel like an animal that feels like something is missing. Its so difficult. In those times of the day I feel most alone. I guess its our partner that we see first thing in the morning and last thing at night...

I told this to the friend I am staying with - she looked at me as if I am insane...

I am staying with my cousin over tomorrow and Saturday (wont take laptop with I dont think...) - will have some peace and quiet there and no judgments (relief!!)

Hugs to you xxx