Yes, I heartily agree too. I'm going through a period when I have a lot more good days than I've had in years, and as soon as I reach a time of critical mass of good days I start to feel like I shouldn't be on the Disability Pension - I should be working. But of course I tried to go back to work last year and fell on my bum and couldn't do it.

I've also started a new part time Uni course, as part of rehabilitation, self esteem, intellectual fulfillment etc. And I'm doing OK at it so I start to think, well I should be working if I can study. But of course that is ridiculous because the study mode I am doing is off-campus, so I work around the bad days I have, the nights of poor sleep which leave me very low functioning, and as soon as I have a good day, or even a good part of a day - I jump in and do parts on my Uni work. But jobs don't work like that!! lol. I can't rock up to a job when I feel like it, or when the restrictions of my life threatening mental illness allow me a small pocket of time in which I am well enough to work. So, I'm trying to give myself a break and realise that I don't have to be on the brink of suicide every single minute to deserve to be on the Pension. And I work as hard as I possibly can in psychiatry, psychology and for me, AA as I'm 11 years sober - so I could not put a jot more into my recovery than I do now - in fact my clinicians are often holding me back from working too hard on myself as like anything compulsive, it can be counterproductive.