We spent time with some friends going over the past few years. .......
This life is so wild to have parts that know happiness and yet still have those that know only pain and hardship because there are those that are willing to take advantage of someone else fear.
With each memoir/ alter that shares with the whole it is like a get out of jail card. It hurts like h*** but after the alter realise that the abuse no longer has to continue its like having a boil that is so full that you can not think of anything else but the pain. Then when it pops it still hurt even more so but it does begin to fade. Then as we share the good memoirs the bad one don't feel so dark. To be free to know that no one can make you do something you do not want to do. At least not with out a fight. We have survied h*** on earth. Those that have DID and PSTD are not that way because they have lived a life in a rose garden.
But to be at peace that is the greatest gift of all to know that you did the best you could and still lived. The greatest geift of all is that my son may not fully respect me/us but he is applying himself at school. He is now taken responsibilty for his life .
Now right or wrong we are still holding our ground in what we are willing to do or take from other people. That is freeing to know that we are now deciding and able to back up our choices more and more.
The DAlmation are realising that it is the aduilt responsibility to keep the body safe and that we can walk away from people that do not make us feel safe. But it also with the knowledge that what we do is for us now.
L~ lousy things happen to good people but we can work through them and change our actions to make life different. I once thought that We had to accept being treated with little respect but now I welcome the right to walk more and more. We may not be able to leave this town yet but it is coming. Just do not know how many more boils we have to lance so we can heal...
But with each one we are more and more able to call our life our own and that we no longer have to take the abuse of others.
The ability to come here to have the freedom to purg that which we have not been able to do all these years that we have lived here has given us the ablilty to think that there can be a better future us.
Thank you PC world from all of us within!
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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