Hi RK! So sorry you are feeling so badly. One year ago...I was so depresed I could not get myself out of bed in the morning. My meds had not kicked in yet..and I wondered if I would ever be functional again. I had 4 deaths in the family in a years time.

One of my brothers died of natural causes..at 50 years of age!!Another took his own life. My mom died aboard a jetliner. My favorite uncle died in his sleep. He was only 70 years old.. but was in top shape for someone of that age. My last remaining sibling is an alcoholic. I have no contact, sadly, with him... as he is an extremely difficult person to deal with.

Life is very often pretty darn hard to take..but with the right meds, a good therapist...and support you can get on wonderful forums...such as this one, can make a terrific difference..one day at a time

What meds are you taking? I have a very good therapist now. I would not trade him for anything. I hope you will like it here. Good luck!

~Dottie