I havn't been diagnosed with anything, but i sure can relate to u guys...i'm happy "high" on buzz most times. and then all of a sudden i crash. I act hostile 2ward anybody and feels so embarrassed and sikc and tired of having to go back later to apologize... people think i'm melodramatic, but i don't know how to experience anything in moderation. it's all or nothing, i've never had a choice in the matter. when i'm angry i kud kill sum1, wen i'm sad i wanna kill myself, when i hurt, it gets so bad sumtyms i cut myself, thankfully i havn't cut in months! I don't wanna do that ever again. How do u explain cuts on your arm to the world without being judged? Sometimes i'm so emotionally overwhelmed i hava panic attack...I'm so tired of trying to make other people understand me, and so verry tired of feeling alienated and alone. it's nice to know that in the bigger scheme of things, it appears that i am not...