I haven't been diagnosed with bipolar or anything, but totally relate to your situation. I often find myself feeling trapped and isolated, and the 1 I h8 most is feeling needy...i have this need for people to understand me, and it's really freaking me out right about now that they don't...when we (the girls) have our bonding sessions, they try to understand what i go through, but they don't and this makes me feel lonely too. I usually distract myself by counting my blessings, being thankful for my daughter and spending time with her (even when i'm really irritable and don't feel like it) it helps me. but i must admit i'm starting to feel guilty about needing her to feel normal, it's not her responsibility. I suggest you do something you love, dance like nobody's watching, sing like nobody's listening, and stick to music that hold NO emotional value, cos i've discovered that a song that reminds me of a good time makes me feel worse, and needless to say, sad songs are a NO-NO...I hope I've been some sort of assistance,and hope you discover your coping mechanism...