to start up again. Ive been away from cutting for a long time now.

Do NOT do that to yourself ma'am. You deserve much better than that. You've dealt with a lot of stressors before, what other healthy ways have you used to cope without self-injury being in the picture?

My job is really not secure. im afraid of losing my job and my good paycheck. that makes me really nervous.

*hug* I hope you don't lose your job, but I can understand how it would be nervewracking and would make you want to relapse because of the amount of stress you're under.

I havent gotten paid today and today IS payday. Im ready to walk off the job.

Your job fails. I'm sorry it sucks so much -- find another job while you can? It's not easy though, especially with the current economy and stuff.

Im ready to do what Ive stayed away from for so long. Im trying to not fall down but im just at my end. im also being weaned off one of my bipolar meds to be switched to another so I know my feelings are all messed up

AHHH. I hate being weaned off stuff. Or you forget to take meds, and your feelings and thoughts and everything is horribly icky and messed up. Don't fall down - can you ask for help right now, extra support to deal? Being weaned off meds is hard enough without all the extra stress right now in your life!!

thanks for letting me vent.

Colleen

Well the job is a contract job and the people we contract to have a history of non payment.

Is there anyone you can report them to? That's got to be some sort of illegal!!

Theres not much out there right now. im actively looking but not finding much. So theres stress from that as well as are we really goin to have a job in the next month.

I guess the answer is I need to find a job

C