Vett, I hate to rub salt in the wound, but have you thought about how much pain she is in?? She didn't just blow you off and the relationship you had. I'm sure she feels very betrayed. Granted, she's shown her pain in some immature ways, but maybe you need to think about how she's feeling and not quite so much on how you are feeling. It helps a whole bunch when we think of others some and not quite so much of ourselves.

I just brought that up in hopes that it helps you get out of yourself a bit.

I really hope that things start getting better for you real soon.