Hi Rkkays,
Sorry you're feeling so bad. It'll get better.

I think figuring out what you're feeling hopeless, helpless and depressed about is half the battle. From there you'll get angry...that's where I am.
A sense of humor helps, too.
I don't know where you can turn to but this forum sure is helping me out a lot.
My Ts are always letting me down by moving away as soon as I start getting to know them. Very frustrating.
I was on Zoloft for about a year for anxiety and it did help me because I incorporated it with counsling and massage therapy. The massage therapy helped me more then anything, I swear. But that could be just me.
I hope you're feeling a little more light hearted soon.
(((((((((Rkkays))))))))))))