Well, just went I thought things were on the upside they have crashed down. As most of you know I had accepted a new music job for next school year teaching K-8. Well, yesterday the principal calls me and tells me that they cannot fire the current teacher because HR told the principal that he must first put him on an improvement plan for a year. I am absolultey devestated. There are no other music positions and I cannot teach another year in the regular classroom. I was so angry that I came home and took four 2mg pills of Xanax XR. I got scared and called my pdoc who wanted me to go to the hospital, but I refused. I just passed out and my hubbie kept checking on me to make sure I was ok. I woke up this morning not remembering anything from yesterday except the principal calling. Now I am afraid to go back to work Monday as I left the school after I found out. I had my coworker cover for me, but I left crying and a mess. I am so embarrassed. And here I was trying to go off of my meds to have another baby. I feel like such a failure and I don't know what to do. Please help.