Catherine my dear friend

Thank you for taking the time and the genuine thought in your posting. I am ok, I decided this evening to go ahead and pursue the pain medication. So I am comfotable and already got several hours of good sleep, its 3.30am here now and I just woke up for a short bit.

Yes you are so right about the martyrdom and I dont want to become a victim either.

So I have promised myself to treat it with respect.

I wish too you so wise and strong were standing at my side but I can feel the genuine warm person you are in your postings.

Actually to be honest I was kind of hoping you would reply as I value your judgement in this matter. So thank you my friend.