I really do not know if there are different parts of me or not(Feels that way) I seem to be able to do what I absolutly have to do then I pay the price.such as very bad headaches, needing to hit my heaad , selfharm or just sit and rock.
I get lots of positive feedback from people on jobs weel done or great ideas, BUT when I hear this feedback I feel like they are not talking to me and that it was someone else who did what ever. I can't sem to ever feel like iot was me. I am a master at minimizing everything.
What ios going on? Why does this happen all the time. Is it at all possible that I have dissociative identity disorder???? . I also have problems with remembering things quite often, especially over the past six months, why now.
I know that I used to have flashbacks regulary, but they just seemed o go away on their own, I had to keep telling myself they are not really happening anymore.
I do how ever have a lot of triggers.and they really have a huge effect on me, usually to the point that I can't function properly.

I just want to say thank you very much for the first feedback , and yea I am on medication 1- for anxiety, 2- Doxepin for sleeping as I have lots of terrible night mares and this helps me not have them and 3-Seroqual to help with not hearing bad things in my mind that I need to die etc. this one only seems to help sometimes.
I will try writing things down, sounds like it could help. Thanks
Also i feel very welcomed to this site, it was a little scarry at first for me to type my first entry, but knowing that I am not being judged really helps.