Has anyone else been this bad?

-To go 2 days without showering (eww) repeatedly
-To have no desire to work after years of busting my bum
-To not care about anything
-To feel like you are 5
-To do stupid things to jeopardize a career
-To not leave the house for days at a time
-To get sick from most SSRI's
-To not care about holidays at all
-To want nothing but a stuffed animal and my dog (I am not a little kid)
-To stop cooking
-To not see improvement, except in little spurts

ok, I don't get this...I miss my old hometown BADLY....everyone keeps telling me to grow up and "hey, you were living in your own place", it's just what happened to you...its a security issue...

So one the one hand, I feel like I am 5...on the other, some days....80...

I am sorry I am venting again

I was ok over the weekend - thought maybe this was getting better but I guess not -

It's been 9 months

"Yack"