I don't quite know when my first episode was, primarily due to the fact that I wasn't quite right from the age of approximately four onward. I do recall always having the feeling of being watched by something beyond this world. I am watched by many things. Life sort of had an ethereal/dreamlike feel to it.

Today the experience of paranoia is intense. It is not a feeling of being watched by rather a knowing.

I wish everyone the very best.