Hi welcome to psych central. I too lost my mother as a child and didn't have anyone to support me back then, so I just pushed all the bad feelings down, and pretended that they didn't matter. As a result I did lose touch with my emotions, and developed all sorts of unhealthy coping mechanisms such as self injury and a drinking problem.

I've found that therapy has been very helpful for me in connecting to my emotions again, although it has been a long slow and very painful process. You might want to consider therapy, if you can afford it or have insurance that will cover it. Just don't expect it to be a quick fix. I've been in therapy for 12 years, and now I can feel emotions again - now I'm learning how to deal with them.

If you do decide to pursue therapy, I'd look for a therapist who has specific training in working with childhood trauma.

Good luck.

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